Maze

Studying medicine is not difficult actually. Yeah, i know its easy to say but hard to do. In fact, the most important thing in studying medicine is hardworking. Which i am totally lacking of.

The only difficult thing in medicine is that it's too broad and for certain level for instance a medical student, you only need to know certain things. So, studying medicine is just like walking in a maze with a time limit. A maze is created in the first place to prevent its invaders coming out from it. And here i am as the naive invader.

In the maze, i tried to find the way out and as expected, all the effort meets dead end. From one dead end to the other, and from another dead end to the other, i gradually become frustrated. I ask myself, why am i wasting my energy trying to find the right way out of the maze, since only dead ends i am ended up with? Nevertheless, i am still going on with the flow and finally got the idea on which is the right way, how should i walk through, where are the traps and which junction to be avoided until you reach the exit of the maze. However, without realizing, time are tickling close to the time limit, and although knowing the correct pathway, i still could not make it to the end.

This is what i experienced in the study of medicine. For a medical student, you do not need to know everything to pass, but you need to know what you are expected to know to pass. If only i realise what i should know, and what are just nice to know at the very beginning, maybe i will not started off so blindly and ended up striving to pass.

I wonder why some of them just know what is important to study, and do not waste too much time studying the nice to know stuff. Is it they are born to be smart, or they know what to focus from what lecturer says, or they have been told what to study from their seniors, or they have complete notes from their seniors of all the important stuff. And why do i never know where should i put my focus on?

Maybe this is just an excuse for myself for not being able to excel in my studies since entering medical school. But it really is an issue for me and make myself begin to be frustrated in studying. Added with my poor power of memorizing, i really loss confidence in studies. More patheticly, i am now just merely trying to cope with studies by not failing in exams.

Now, i just hope that i can made it through...with the limited time...and limited knowledge within...